I know exatly what you mean, and i understand that you
feel alone in my world, sometimes people can be so cold in
but hey, the thing about my family, my mom told
me that it went pretty well (thats what she thinks) so next time or
very soon, ask them if you can spend christmas with them, if you can
move in.....if you want to, i mean, you shouldn't be with the other
family in christmas...and if you want to, then i think that my mom
and dad would like to have you...so think about it!!!!
feel so lonely too, but it comes in periodes, you know! like you
have a really great time, and then you come home and everybody is
so...i don't know, angry like as if you are bugging them with your
present or something! but i'm not mad at all at my mom and dad,
because they have been following all of this trouble for so long and
they would just want me to be allright again.....and they are not
forcing me, just trying to do something to help me.....maybee i even
want them to ask me to come home, you know, because then i have an
excuse! but i know one thing, and that is, that i'm NOT spending my
christmas in this house, i refuse to do that!!!! never! so i hope
that i will get a new family inthis week!
about the thing
with your exchange friends, i know what you mean and they are always
the ones who understand you the best, so it must be hard for you
that you don't have anybody like that close to you as you can talk
to.....is there any of the danish people who you feel close to? dn't
you worry and lets keep in touch, i hope that you will move to my
house soon, if that is what you want and that it will be better for
the thing is, that maybee 'm even happy that my
mom and dad maybee will ask me that, because then i can say, "i'm
going home because my mom and dad asked me to, because they were
worried about me, and they were right" but its not that simple!!! i
oh, i gotta go! by the way, have you talked to
the rotary if you can skip clases sometimes?just sometimes, if it
gets to hard!
my problem on my school, is that we only have
two breaks in eight hours and they lock the doors when we arrive in
the morning at 7 o'clock, so i'm caught in there undtil 14.30
without being able to go anywhere....it doesn't feel like a prison,
it IS a prison! they don't even have anywhere were you can go to
relaxe, because the school is so strict, but i also see the other
way around that it can be very lonesome with all the breaks cause
who will you go and talk to?
write to me soon, and tell me
how you are doing...and who is our boyfriend? is he fro denmark or
from the exchangestudent program?
good luck to you too
ps. i hope that if ou move with my mom and
dad, you'll have a nice time!
||From: "emily picha" <email@example.com> |
Subject: nanna, ay
Date: Mon, 03 Dec 2001 20:36:44 +0100
og så skriver jeg på engelsk, fordi det er mit
bedste sprog (verdad???).
i was at a rotary meeting
tonight and tilma said he was really concerned about you. he
said he was going to talk to jes and get him to talk to your
counsellor or district counsellor. i feel so bad that you have
to be in this horrible family and that there is no way out.
the only solutions i have for you is talk to your friends at
school and see if they might host you for a little while until
you figure things out. it must be so hard being so far away
and trying to work things out. i do not think you should come
home though. i think that things will work out before the end
of the month, and if you don't want to come home, your parents
SHOULD NOT make you come home. this is your year nanna. and
although it depends on all these other people to make this
fragile web of CRAP that we face (real parents, multiple host
parents, 2 counsellors, kids at school, other exchange
students), i really think that this is still your year. after
hacking through the stories you send (ikke den flottest til
dansk endnu, specielt når jeg først kom), it looks like mexico
has taught you a lot. you are learning spanish, taking taxis,
eating (in my opinion), the best food in the world. this is a
once in a lifetime thing, and i know you are tired of it and
you know (me too, today i almost started crying in math.),
wait a week and see how you feel. i am sure it will be
different. the situation is nok slemt, and so there has to be
a solution soon.
i know what you mean about school
being a prison, and i really don't have it bad at all. it's
just no one bothers to be nice and say hello. and then what is
there to say? i don't know. it's hard. the subjects i am
taking are BORING. Useless for me, since i just tune them out.
physics? what the fuck. math? it's hard, but i klar mig en
gang imellem. do you ever feel like this exchange is set out
to show you everything you are NOT GOOD AT!!! To show you your
weakest areas, and force you to work on them? I am so lonely
in your world Nanna! Danish people are sometimes hyggelig,
rigtige søde. but sometimes i am soooooooooooo lonely! and
with the family i have right now, i feel sometimes like i rent
the room, nothing like a daughter or even a third cousin. The
exchange students live far away, and that is not why i am
here. but it's so damn easy to think about them all the time,
and to try to be with them all the time. and now i even got
myself a fucking kærester. what the hell do i do about
that?!?! he lives in sorø, and i can never see him. i wonder
what your parents will say about that?
family was really nice. your brother seems pretty cool and
your parents too. i learned a lot of danish in those.. ehh.. 6
hours! and the food was better than this family. i am looking
forward to being able to choose whether or not to eat meat. i
wish that i could see you again before i leave (but i better
not because i hope you don't come back early!!!!). i will do
my best with your family and i am sure everything will be
fine. i will also probably ask you for advice now and then.
held og lykke!
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